Has anyone elses family's hatefullness left them alone/ abandoned in life, not able to develop lasting friends

Ever since I was little, I have been "alone" in my family, unable to share any emotion without betrayal, now they have suceeded in "convincing" my oldest child to abandon me, and now I feel my youngest will soon sucuumb. I am feeling so alone, I never have had a lasting friendship. I try, but I always get screwed over with females, and jelous with men. I am almost alone in this world, only having my youngest still with me. I feel like I am so abnormal in society, that I am unloveable and my youngest would be better off leaving me now as it's only a matter of time before she catches my inability to be a participant in society, or she finds I am just a psycho that can't have anyone close and leaves me like everyone else. I don't want her to catch my repugnance,be rejected and alone. I try to make her reach out to people, and I see similar stuff happening to her, but at least she's has a few friends that have lasted for like four years now. I never had that, so I know she has hope.